Love... Expressions

I have always been a die hard romantic... Always believed in barbie and Ken right from my childhood days to the romantic character of Raj played by SRK in my growing up teenage days to even my early adulthood days of Derek n Meredith and the clan...

Now I'm 30 and I realize love isn't just romance. I know married couples who are so very romantic in their expression of love on special occasions - I used to envy them. Until recently. You just need love in life, not romance.

I'm lucky I have a mother who loves me so much that she is always thinking about me. When I have bad days, I talk to her and she's always there to comfort me. She will follow up with me as to how I'm feeling. Life without her is unimaginable. It's scary, my scariest nightmare. I am extra lucky to have 2 mothers - my mother in law has always been my mother. She's always here to take care of me.. She never made me feel I'm a daughter in law and that's saying a lot in Indian family!!! I'm blessed to have her. We are all blessed with loving mothers but very few of us are blessed with caring mother in laws. Thank you God for blessing me so.

Love is...
- that hug to tell you I'm with you
- covering you with a blanket on a chilly night, or in my case any night
- cleaning your wound - even the disgusting boils with pus coming out of them
- confirming if you have reached home
- checking on you after having a bad break out
- wiping your tears and comforting you
- motivating you by sharing videos to make you feel better
- my mothers.

If you don't Express it means you don't care enough to express it which means it isn't love. The expressions are very subtle but the vibes are so strong that you cannot not feel it. Not expressing it and saying 'I love you' is just fake and who wants such romance anyway?!!

A gentle touch,
a caring hug,
a comforting smile
Goes a long mile...

Bringing you tea
when you're down,
Giving you meds,
To make u alright.

Worrying about you
Asking where u are
Staying awake till late
Hoping you'll reach safe.

Your tears will hurt them
Your smile will cheer
You may not realize
U're their world, oh dear!

Love is worship
Love is care
Love is friendship
And just being there.

Love is to pamper
Love is to spoil
Love is to smother
Love keeps u alive.

Love makes life better
Love eases the pain
Assures you're not alone
N it will be all better again.

Love could be passion
Love could be wild
Love could be subtle
You decide...

Tears of joy
Tears of pain
Are all felt in....
Love, again.

Emotions are endless
Expressions too
Without these,
Don't say I love you.

We need love
To survive
We need love
To stay "alive".

I can go on n on
As expressions don't end
I'm lucky to experience
so many first hand.

Some express more
Some rarely do
Cherish those
Who really love you.

Return thy love
With abundance indeed
For its an investment
With an infinite RoE!!

Maa.. Mumma.. Mummy...

Recently I came across a quote - " When you're happy, you will search for the person you love the most. But when you are sad, you will search for the person who loves you the most."

I completely agree with this. It is only the difficult times that make you realize who loves you the most and is willing to stand by your nonsensical behavior. Only when you're acting all unreasonable will you come to know the people who will fight with you but NOT give up on you. And one such person who will always be there is - Maa.

There are tines when I'm in a bad mood and I decide not to eat anything for dinner. Stupid pride, silly anger and definitely no need to takeot out on food. The thing is - I cannot sleep on an empty stomach. Only my Mom knows that and above all, she's the only one who will care enough to make sure I eat something. Everyone else - your siblings, your spouse, other members of d family will tell you - Your behavior is immature and uncalled for.

I'm 100% certain I can't live without my mother. I won't survive. The thought of it brings tears down my eyes. Oh God, please give her a long healthy life. I don't think my life will have any quality without her.

We have so many people around us, but in the end, we are all alone. You may spend an entire evening with friends but at the time of sleeping, that moment when you are alone, the person you miss is the one who loves you.

I never understood how people fall in love. always fantasized and maybe that's why my favorite movies are still the chick flicks. Do people really pamper each other even when the other person is acting like a jerk? Not in my experience. But parents do. Guess that's why it's d purest form of love.

I wish I could return the love to you Ma. I wish we saw each other more. Wish we were in the same city. Wish I could sleep next to you. Lucky are those who get all this.

Silent Karma

Silence...

Its amazing and fascinating how a simple silence can speak a thousand words, express so many feelings and over think so many useless thoughts.

You miss someone deeply and you go into a shell mode. Keep thinking about your loved one. You don't realize you have gone into the silent mode.

This is what I am thinking... Why karma theory has to pass on from one life to another? If someone is a good soul in one life, he should reap benefits then and there. Why do we see such good people suffer due to some bad karma done by their "soul" in their past life.. The life they don't even recall?!!

Karma theory is I feel a farce. A condolation given to you when you are not doing well in life inspite of all d efforts. It sucks. One should be served justice then n there. Haven't we all agreed that Justice delayed is justice denied?!! Then why do we accept - bhagwan ke pass der hain andher nahi.. Rubbish.

I love you my dear. Wish I could help you in ways possible. I won't give up. You can bet on that.

Random Wisdom

Wow.. Its been ages since I actually wrote something. Its such a delightful change. Thank you Twitter for having character restriction and pushing me to blogging non stop.

I have so much to say.

So here I go. But nothing is related. N mostly self directions.

1. Your mother is the first person who fell in love with you. Guess what? She will still be the person who will always love you the most, no matter how many ppl love you now. Your husband, your friends, your siblings. Its not the same. Will never be. So you owe it to her. Worship her. Love her. Take care of her. And most importantly- be there for her.

2. Family: Married people will agree (hopefully) - we have 2 families. For girls, the family you marry into becomes your "primary" family. This is what you will be taught and rightly so to a large extent, as applicable from case to case ;) I don't believe in the concept of "in laws". I've always hated the Hindi serials which preached the saas bahu apprehensions. Luckily for me, I don't have a mother in law. Just another mother. I think that's the best feeling on earth. The greatest blessing. So let's hope I put up my end of show well too.

3. Husband: tricky. Wrong day to blog about my husband. Never type after a fight. My golden rule of life: never save a bad memory. Destroy all.evidence. So I'm not gonna speak much. Its a hard time for him and I'm suppose to be the bouncing board - as he likes to call it. But sometimes the negativity gets to me. This time it has. N worst part is I can't share with anyone.
Sigh... Let's.move on.

4. Friends: your closest friends will always be the closest. Well that's what I thought and grew up with. Apparently its wrong. People keep evolving throughout their life. Their priorities change. Their passions change. I feel my bestest friends aren't really the closest now. But luckily I have made new friends who are very close and don't make.me miss my besties. I guess expectations and failure to meet them drew me apart from my childhood friends :( A loss I feel everyday but can't change. Its annoying and saddening at the same time.
I miss u girls. I cherish the old days. Wish we could bring them back soon.

5. Little joys in life - helping someone is the greatest joy. U get a different high when you know u made a difference to someone's life. N I'm not influenced by the movie Kick.

Now I'm sleepy. At least I should be. So here I go - visit my dreamworld. Its fun sometimes to meet my old friends there. It's a wonder how your brain can offer you a treat of its own.

Ciao!

The Marathi Speaking Rule

I've lived my whole life in Maharashtra and therefore the "Marathi Speaking rule" imposed by "those few" didn't really bother me. Infact for me it was just a topic you discuss for a minute or two and then forget about it. The same way we casually say- "Ah, corruption is on a rise.. blah blah.." and later we continue with our daily routine and wont even think twice before bribing the traffic policemen if we are getting late for work. However on a Friday morning, something happened and it got me thinking and I decided to put it in my blog.

I commute by train to reach work and normally I go to the station by car. However, this friday the poor driver could not come. (I call him poor cos his house or as they say "kholi" was demolished by the BMC and he had to stay on the road and rebuilt the same. Anyway, more on that later) So I decided to get a rick. Its never a favorable means of transport for many reasons- the chaos they create, the meter manipulations stories that I hear from friends, the undue "cuts" taken by them, etc etc. I got into a rick to reach the station. We were at a red signal on the Kamdhenu square near 4-Bungalows. As always he was trying to squeeze his way into the traffic. There was a Van- more like those 9 seaters- to our left and even it was trying to squeeze in. The Van wrongly came to its right and its side-view mirror touched that of the rickshaw's. So my rickshaw wala said- "Bhaiya kya kar rahe ho.." And to my surprise this was in a polite tone!! What happened next left me speechless-

The Van guy rolled down its window. Adjusted his side mirror. Spitted one of those pan-kinda-red-liquid-thingy outside. Then looked at the rickshaw wala. Pointed his finger and said "Marathi bol Marathi. Samjha kya..?!! Marathi bol. Kya?!" The poor rickshaw wala nodded- what else could he do right? And then that Van guy drove away.

I wanted to say so much in his defence but I didnt kno what to do. For the first time my heart went out for such rickshaw and taxi walas. I realised their misery. And at the same time I realised how wrong it is to put a rule like that. India is a symbol of democracy and yet in its very own Financial Capital we have something so contradictory!! I couldnt think of any way to stop this all by myself. Until Friday, I didnt even think about this. Its stange how a little incident can change your perception. I will try to make a difference- I dont know how- but I want to.